Short Diary for Sunday

Thinking about summer I have cut hears again today; it was like something like inner need forchange. So now I am locking as slimy boy with short hear; with image of Sleeping woman. What of a contradiction, Blind Willow, SLEEPING WOMAN INVOLVED WITH SENTENCE FROM PAST SUMMER>

'' Newer again will single story be told as thought it's only one.''

Not old.
Not young.
But viable die/able/age//. Anyway these are only small thing worth of life.
The days are shorted; morning has been shiny, afterward’s windy. After several months I am feel hunger; what is good; before it was so sad and disguising to lock me. As sad, sick, pale vision of something like female; now I do not pity myself; either cries silently for lusted time/past tense! My path is parallel with river not with Ghosts on the boat. I have no plans just hopes. Now the world is alive with the sound of music. Nevertheless it was fortunate; indeed it is a blessing to have been melancholy as I was. Had I been a happily nature - and had a then experienced what I did experienced as female!? But within me, where I really suffered I knew more frightfully things. So now I am satisfy with achieved tranquility which is result by lesson from life experience.
So new season is here, everybody is speaking about something personally important but I am just think about small things.
Cup of tea!
Warm room.
Cat on my bad, Lacy.

Teddy in my life..
New book..
Anja.

Broken Heart

''Hurt Feelings'' of a rebuff -which suggest the physical nature of the emotional ache. Laughing and crying come spontaneosly  in primal moments of social connection - births and deaths, weedings and long deffered reunions. Distress at separation and joy at bounding both be speak the primal power of connection. When we are need closeness goes unmet, emotional disorders can result. So called ''SOCIAL DEPRESSION''.

Psychologist have coined the term ''social depression'' for the perception of the particular unhappines consed by troubled, threatened relationships. Social rejection - of fear of it = is one of the causes for the anxiety. 

Still when we hope to be YOU, being treated and IT, as we though we do not matter, carries a particularly harsh sting.

People who are self -absorded, best in their own inner world have litle choice but to project that sensibility whomever they perceive. 

So if we could we should try  to do it several things:

To harmonise those four terms:

Strenght

Weakness 

Acceptance

Needs

If we could just to try it to accept our own personality at it is, another people how they are, to understand what we could change and what we could not...we will be in harmony with our self and with out side world..of people and order of words and things by Foucalt.