A WOMAN WHO HAS LAID HER LAP TOP, HER PSCYCHIATRIST AND AS
FAR THE REST OF THE WORLD...But she could not to do it just one thing…?! :)
Well this women was a such perfection on first sight, charming,
with manners of one lady, good locking, *wow with very good shaped body, green
eyes, white skinned, tinny, as fragile vase from porcelain. If I could remember
the people use to talk about her that she has been very educated as some
scholar but I would add that she was very odd actually turn up that she is little
bit out of her sane mind. Insanity type of women, with changeable behavior, for
sometimes very communicative, for sometimes very alienated as personality.
If I want to be honest with you, it is truth that she has
been very educated as some sophist either eclectic but this women with her odd
attitude could not either wont to have some utility from all this knowledge.
She members me on June Barnes, American novelist, news paper reporter from
Paris who has lived in Paris after WWI, most stormy time on the field of culture, art, politics ..Etc.
But I another sense this women have something like Orlando, from famous novel
of Virginia Wolf. With lot of faces, moods, for sometimes she has burst out
with energy as restless kitten as far being, either totally not interested as
passive doll. In such moments you could even kill her because she was out of
her body; but not meditating like in one stupid movie with anorexic star Julia
Roberts: Eat, Pray, Love. Think so; she was hermetically imprisoned in her own
world.
If somebody try it to invite her on coffee, tea, lunch,
dance, date she have habit to say so:’ Sorry I am not available for time being.’’
Always, good polite excuse, with some step backwards. While is time passing,
but her face still was face of Dorian Gray; maybe she have it one hidden portrait
in her home, who knows; people stop to invite her on coffee, parties, birthdays,
dates, just because she would not come. Moreover no body from society likes
such behavior it looks like disparagement, indifference for society,
communication or conceit, to snobbish. Naturally that such oneness as
exclusiveness was out of popularity not appreciable for people but she gives
not a dame for it. She just not care what people really think about her,
particularly some of people.
It is certainly for the years she has developed calmness, detachment
as sort of phlegmatic on all what is so commonly too human. If I could add that
she has been turn to her own world in her own house of human being, known just
to her. How it really locks to run life in the world of bracken mirrors and
twisted spheres as in Magritte’s paintings either Lewis Carol novels, nobody
knows just her. So she has been big liar: she has laid her lap top, psychiatrist,
colleagues, quittances. Maybe she would say if she wants honestly: ‘Why I
should have to talk with people when they could hurt me? Nobody knows how is
hard to be alone, frighten, fragile, sensitive. Actually nobody listen me, he
just listen his own voice, or on the others bottom the hundred whips is
nothing. Why should I have to waste my time and words beyond is necessary?’’ So
as she was polite, good locking, you could think for her that she is very satisfied
with herself, self confident, stabile personality. But it was just some kind of
Margret’s images as this is a for instance:’’The Mask of Lighting’’ but it was
not, it was on the contrary:’’ Just False Image’’.
But these women could not lie on this world one person: ‘Her
lover…
